At Seventeen......

I usually took my afternoon off by taking a nap but i couldn't sleep because there's no electricity and i can't turn on the fan,so i just watch the movie An Education. Carey Mulligan is indeed worth the Oscar nomination she got,she's doing great in that movie. I specifically like her line "i feel very old but not wiser". I can quite relate to it. I'm 27 years old but i feel like i haven't done enough,i feel that there are still a lot of things i need to discover and learn. Education doesn't stop once we finished college,it's just the beginning of the bigger life ahead. So let me flashback 10 years ago,when i was seventeen. How was it like?..hmmm 10 years ago, i was a 4th year student in a La Salle school in my hometown,Surigao. I was naive,innocent and full of high hopes and ideals. I was pretty much well protected by my parents and endowed with Christian teaching at school. I was unusually shy,almost to the point of  shutting myself out of other people. I live in my own world where nobody else could penetrate except me and me alone,not even my parents. I only had a few friends way back then. I was not good in socializing,i suck at that big time. My world is limited to my imaginations,my secret longings,and my plans. When i entered college,that's when i realize to see the bigger picture about life. I started to experiment and do some things which other people might consider foolish and stupid. I experimented with relationships as well,of love and casual hook ups, of lovers and flings, of giving my all and getting heartbroken,. I learned about friendship,who's true or not,who's just bullshitting you with their pretensions or those who's true enough to stay. I learned that people come and go,either they die or just simply doesn't want to be with you anymore. I learned a lot as the days and years passed by and i will continue learning and discovering more about the bigger world out there. That life is indeed different compared to the time when i was seventeen.