Comfort Zone

I borrowed this analogy or whatever you want to call it from my recent favorite TV show Girls. I'm done with safe and predictable. I feel like I'm inside of that circle for far too long. There are still a lot of things that I wish to do and I don't want to arrive to a point in my old age regretting about things that I could have done. I want to have stories to tell, situations to experience, insights and wisdom to gain from the mistakes and failures I'll make. I have this hunger to go out of that circle when I saw my sister's friend struggling for his dear life because of an infection which slowly eats him. I have seen deaths from my relatives lately and it made me realize that life is just borrowed and life is too short to restrict ourselves inside that circle when in fact we can go out of it and fully embrace life and totally experience what it has to offer. Anything can happen and is achievable under the sun as long as we are still alive and will firmly believe that we can really get it,coupled with prayers and hard work. Life is not about quantity, it's more on the quality of life we have had and these questions we might possibly ask when we are in our deathbeds or even when we are still alive since we don't know when death will take us--> Have I love enough? Have I forgiven those who have done me wrong? Have I been a good person to those whom I've left behind? Have I been a good person to those whom I've met? Have I completely enjoyed my life? Have I been really happy,fulfilled and contented? Ahhhhhhhh I'm getting too philosophical, haha.....2013 target--> TO GET OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE AND EMBRACE THE MAGIC.

The Power of Prayer

I totally believe that God will grant you the desires of your heart if you fervently pray for it. I used to be so lost and misdirected, I used to trust on my own judgement when it comes to religion and spirituality stuffs. I used to be so spiritually hungry,maybe malnourished even. It all change when I agreed to go with my mama to church one day. Hearing the gospel after almost five years of not going to church breaks away any doubts and fears I have about myself. I regained my faith back. My outlook in life changed. God uses people, places and even situations to shake you up and make you realize that you mess up and you need Him and only Him alone. At a moment when I was so sad and unsure of how my life goes, I prayed that He'll guide me and take me out of the struggles inside my head.  While I was riding on a boat on the way to the beach in Bohol and just saw how vast the ocean is, I feel like I am the one who limits my own world, I am the one who let myself get stuck at home when in fact I could go to places.  I was so sad at work that even the mere mention of  "How are you?" to my students makes me cry, that's when I knew that I need to let go and send that resignation letter. I was so uncertain but something pushes me to just let go and send it, I don't know but it felt really liberating. Those situations that I mentioned on top, I feel that God uses those to make me trust in Him more, to just totally abandon to Him everything. It's like ayaw soloha, tawaga ko ug bahini ko anang imong gipas-an and I did and now I am in the proper frame of mind and more positive than before. I make it really a habit to go to church every Saturday morning to hear the 6am mass and I don't mind waking up very early,I prefer going to church on Saturdays because it's more solemn. I fervently asked for direction and He granted it to me and I am now happy,not lost and confused anymore. Thank you Lord for your love, compassion and mercy, I don't deserve it but you embrace me and my shortcomings. Salamat jud kaayo, walay tungkad na pasalamat.