Uber Hooked

He is my newest fantasy. I definitely go gaga over moreno handsome guys who speaks good English. He is the real definition of HOT. I just like him oh so damn much. I was rooting for him and his team mate to win in Amazing Race Asia 4,gladly they did. woohoo to the Richards of the Philippines.

Past and Present

A lot of our reactions to situations are conditioned by our past experiences. If someone treats us kindly, we learn to treat others kindly. If we have been cheated by a stranger, we would always view a stranger with suspicion. When we experience rejection, we become more careful not to face the hurt again. If we examine our past experiences, we can always find links that explain the way we are now. It is a learned behaviour. Consciously or otherwise, we all learn from our experiences.

Pocketful of Sunshine

Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away)
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (A hiding place)


There's this place that I go 
Where nobody knows 
Where the rivers flow 
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And the darkness is light
And nobody cries
There's only butterflies

If I Had My Life to Live Over...I would________

 I saw one of Paulo Coelho's blog entitled If I Had to Live my Life Over and was inspired to write my own version.....

If I Had My Life to Live Over, I could have....
--had been confident and not shy, less conscious and could have had been more assertive
--had to be more brave to be different and not someone whose living my life just to impress and meet other people's expectations, like my parents and relatives.
--had been more smart and more discerning with the guys i went out with and di agad sana nadala sa matatamis na salita,sa tempting devilish looks, lust,and my own weakness
--had prioritized self-respect over loving someone too much
--had been more expressive with my love for my parents especially with my dad, i only said the words "i love you" twice, one was while he was in bed in a coma and fighting for his dear life.

****actually there are still a lot of could have beens,one blog entry isn't enough, but there's one thing that i am sure of and that is, i still have a chance to change the past and i can't go on living life with regrets.

Updates

was lazy in doing something lately, will just write here some of the recent updates...

--Oct. 31-went to my hometown for the celebration of all soul's day, traveled at 2am, arrived at 6, coolest cab driver ever, gi-3 hours ra ang davao-mangagoy, perfect!...rest for a few hours, then off to hinatuan at 10am, arrived in enchanted river at around 1230, the river is simply awesome, crystal blue waters and fresh air,i was literally swimming along with the fishes, indeed a perfect family getaway,too bad,naa lang nisagol na asungot....to the max na iyang pgka feeling close, but the hell i care with him....dedma

--Nov. 1-went to Mahabo to visit my lola's grave, along with my relatives,and then off to Tinuy--an falls after.... the falls is simply breathe taking, a living testament of one of God's magnificent creations...super ganda, had a free massage on my back sa lagaslas ng tubig, love it!....

--Nov. 2-went to my father's grave and offer my prayers, it's been five years now, the thought of him gone still brings tears in my eyes, i miss him, i wish he could see what i did for my family, i hope it would somehow cover the frustrations he had with me when he died, i hope that he's proud of me somehow, i love you papa, i hope that you're always there for us, constantly guiding us, i know that you do....

Not Easy

It is not easy to lose what you never had

Miserable

Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now
by The Smiths

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now

I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now


In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?


Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I'm miserable now


I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now


In my life
Oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?


What she asked of me at the end of the day
Caligula would have blushed


"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled


In my life
Why do I smile
At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ?


I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now


"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled


In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?

I Tried Really Hard....

just singing, recalling some of my struggles..and laughing it out, i still like this song though..

I Try
by Macy Gray

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
Deny

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
(but I'm dreaming of you babe)
I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear (sick of love)
My world crumbles when you are not near (your love, kisses and) 

Goodbye and I choke (I'm choking)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not there, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah.. 

Feeling Alive After Months of My Mundane Existence

For the first time in after months of what i consider my mundane existence, I Ana actually felt alive. I saw one of my rock gods, one of  those few whom i considered my rock legends, one of Philippines' rock icons, Ely Buendia in the flesh, belting out some of the songs i grew up with. I got so high to the point of forgetting that i was in my depressive state days ago. I got so high that i forgot work for a while, i got so high that i know how it feels like to be alive,and most of all i got so high that i start wanting to embrace life again, thanks God for the likes of Ely B.

Wow!

This speech was delivered by a La Sallian engineer in one of the graduation ceremonies at the UP College of Engineering.

Ngayong araw na ito, sa ating pagtatapos, mayroon akong dalang Transcript of Record. Ang estudyanteng may-ari ng transcript na ito ay nag-aral sa De La Salle University. Sa unibersidad na ito, kapag ikaw ay isang undergraduate, may ID number ka na nagsisimula sa “94” at pataas, kung lumipas ang isang buong school year at umabot ka sa 15 units na bagsak, masisipa ka sa paaralan.

Ang transcript na hawak ko ay mayroong 27 units ng bagsak. 12 sa mga ito ay tinamo ng estudyante sa iisang schoolyear lang. Ang isang subject ay kadalasang may bigat na 3 units. Kung iisiping mabuti, isang subject na bagsak na lang ay pwede na masipa ang estudyanteng may-ari ng transcript na ito. 

Ang speech na ito ay hindi ko ginawa para i-acknowledge ang paghihirap ng ating mga magulang sa pagpapaaral satin. Hindi ko din ito ginawa para maghayag ng political statement, o kumbinsihin kayo na huwag umalis sa bansa at tulungan itong makaahon. Ang speech na ito ay para sa mga normal na estudyante na kagaya ng may may-ari ng transcript na hawak ko, dahil madalas, wala talagang pakialam ang unibersidad sa mga achievements nila. May mga awards na gaya ng “Summa Cum Laude”, “Best Thesis Award” at “Leadership Award.” Pero ni minsan, hindi pa ako nakakakita ng unibersidad na nagbigay ng “Hang-on and managed to graduate despite nearly getting kicked-out during his academic stay” award.

Maaaring isang malaking kagaguhan ang konseptong ito para sa karamihan. Bakit mo pararangalan ang isang estudyanteng bulakbol, bobo, tamad o iresponsable? Hindi ba dapat isuka ito ng unibersidad? Ito yung mga tipo ng estudyanteng walang ia-asenso sa buhay, hindi ba?

Ayun. Natumbok niyo.Iyun na nga ang dahilan.

Madalas, pag ang isang estudyante ay may pangit na marka sa paaralan, lalong lalo na sa kolehiyo, nakakapanghina ito ng loob. Nandiyan yung tatamarin ka mag-aral, nandyan yung iisipin mo “Ano pa kayang trabaho ang makukuha ko? Call center na naman o clerical? Ba’t kasi ang bobo ko. Kung matalino lang ako, sana, sa Proctor and Gamble ako, o kung saang sikat na kumpanya.”

Mas mahirap ang dinadaanan ng mga estudyanteng bumabagsak. Kahit na sabihin mong kasalanan nilang bumabagsak sila, hindi ninyo alam kung ano ang pakiramdam ng ganun. Madaling sabihin na “Kaya mo yan, mag-aral ka lang,” pero alam ba natin talaga ang sinasabi natin?

Kapag ang isang estudyante ay bumabagsak sa unibersidad, nandiyan yung tatawanan niya lang yan. O di kaya naman, ipagmamalaki niya pang “TAKE 5 NA KO!!!” o “Pare, magpi-PhD na ako sa Anmath3/Calculus/etc.” Pero hindi alam ng mga isang Summa Cum Laude kung ano ang nasa isip ng isang normal na estudyante sa tuwing matutulog ito at alam niyang pag-gising niya, kailangan niya na namang ulitin ang isang subject na nakuha niya na sa susunod na term.

Kahit kalian, hindi naging problema sa “Star Student” na sabihing “Nay, bagsak ako.” at hindi kailanman sumagi sa isip nila na “Paano kaya kung sa walang-pangalang kumpanya lang ako makapagtrabaho?” Dahil sigurado sila sa kinabukasan nila.

Huwag na tayong maglokohan. Grades are everything.Kahit bali-baligtarin mo iyan, hindi magiging patas ang mga kumpanyang kumukuha ng fresh graduates para magtrabaho sa kanila. Minsan din naman, nadadaan sa palakasan, pero ganun pa din. Kung hindi ka academically good, wala kang patutunguhan. Kung hindi man yun, mas mahirap yung dadaanan mo para lang makaabot sa prestihiyosong posisyon.

Kaya ngayong graduation, ang speech na ito ay inaaalay ko para sa mga estudyanteng lumagpak, muntik-muntikan nang masipa o yung sa lahat ng paraang pwede, ginawa na para lang makatapos. Gagawin kong patas ang mundo para sa inyo kahit isang araw lang. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin ng ibang tao, kesyo kasalanan mo man na pangit ang marka mo o muntik ka nang makick-out, saludo ako sa hindi mo pagtigil sa pag-aaral. Saludo ako na may lakas ka ng loob na harapin pa rin ang mundo kahit alam mong hindi ito magiging patas sa iyo.Saludo ako na kahit pangit ang transcript mo, taas noo ka pa rin ngayong graduation at proud na proud sa sarili mo.

Ano ngayon ang mangyayari sa mga graduates pagkatapos nitong graduation? Ayoko nang puntahan yung pwedeng mangyayari sa mga Cum Laude. Baduy. Alam mo namang may patutunguhan ang buhay nila e. Pero dun sa mga lumagpak, ano ang meron?

Maaring makakuha kayo ng mediocre na trabaho lang. Pwede ka rin swertehin, baka makapagtrabaho ka sa magandang kumpanya. Madami pang pwedeng mangyari. Huwag kayong mawalan ng pag-asa. Kung nung college, nagtiyaga kayo e ba’t titigilan niyo yung pagti-tiyaga ngayon? 

Pwede ring ganito: Mag-aral ka ulit. Ipakita mo sa kanila na kung sisipagin ka lang, malayo ang mararating mo. Subukan mong patunayan sa kanila na kapag pinilit mo, kaya mo ring abutin yung naabot nila. Na hindi ka bobo, kundi tinamad ka lang.

Baka sabihin ninyo, drowing lang ako.

I’ve been on both sides. Naranasan ko na ring lumagpak, at muntikan na din akong masipa. Naranasan ko na ang umulit ng 4 na beses sa iisang subject. Naranasan ko na ang masumbatan ng magulang, kapatid at kung sino-sino pang propesor na walang pakialam sa pakiramdam ng estuyante. Naranasan ko nang hindi makatulog ng maraming gabi sa pagiisip kung paano ko na naman sasabihin sa magulang ko na may bagsak na naman ako. Kaya alam ko ang pakiramdam ninyo.

Akin ang transcript na ito.

Pagkagraduate ko ng college, ano ang ginawa ko? Eto.Nagtrabaho muna ng konti, tapos aral ulit. Kuha ng Masteral sa kurso ko. Hindi para sa trabaho o kung ano man. Kundi para patunayan sa sarili ko na noong mga panahong bumabagsak ako, tinatamad lang ako. 

This is a rebellion. I raise my middle finger to every professor, over-achiever, naysayer and detractor THAT TOLD ME THAT I CAN'T MAKE IT. I raise my middle finger to every valedictory or graduation speech that only gratifies the university, those who were achievers in school or those who gratify the country when it’s supposed to be the graduate’s moment of glory. You are supposed to acknowledge EVERYONE. Even those who failed many times.

Kaya sa inyong mga graduates na medyo hindi maganda ang marka, para sa inyo ito. Kung kinaya ko ito, kaya niyo rin to. Imposibleng hindi.

Meant to End

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back .. some people are just not meant to be in your life no matter how much you want them to be .. you shouldn't force yourself to hold on ..if its really meant to be it'll happen ....

F*ck You!

i can't get over Lily Allen's sweet voice uttering this line---> f*ck you, f*ck you, very very much, i wish i have the guts to say those words to someone i hate too

Faith

You may not end up where you thought you'd be, but you will always end up where you're meant to be . . . right where God intended you to be all along!

Everyday is Exactly The Same

I believe I can see the future
'cause I repeat the same routine.
I think I used to have a purpose
Then again,
That might have been a dream.

I think I used to have a voice,
Now I never make a sound.
I just do what I've been told.
I really don't want
Them to come around, oh no.

Every day is exactly the same.
Every day is exactly the same.
There is no love here,
And there is no pain.
Every day is exactly the same.

I can feel their eyes are watching,
In case I lose myself again.
Sometimes I think I'm happy here.
(Sometimes) Sometimes,
Yeah I still pretend.

I can't remember how this got started, oh.
But I can tell you
Exactly how it will end.

Every day is exactly the same.
Every day is exactly the same.
There is no love here,
And there is no pain.
Every day is exactly the same.

I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping some day you might find.
Well I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind.

I am still inside her,
A little bit comes bleeding through.
I wish this could have been any other way,
But I just don't know,
I don't know
What else I can do!

Every day is exactly the same.
Every day is exactly the same.
There is no love here,
And there is no pain.
(Every day) Every day is exactly the same.
(Exactly the same!) Every day
Every day (Every day) is exactly the same.
(Every day) Every day is exactly the same.
There is no love here,
And there is no pain.
(Every day) Every day is exactly the same.

Not All You See is the Real Me

DON'T BE SO QUICK TO JUDGE ME, YOU ONLY SEE WHAT I CHOOSE TO SHOW

I saw this one on Tumblr. There are a lot of instances wherein i can quite relate to the quote on top. First one, with my work, i need to flash my smile even if i don't feel like it, i have to be as pleasing as i need to be. Second, i need to put on a face to show civility even to the persons that i don't like. Third, i need to put on a happy face to show that i am okey when the truth is i'm actually bleeding inside. We all do put on a mask at times,to conceal what's real because sometimes it's easier that way, no need to explain further what we actually feel inside.

Mutual Addiction

What i want is to be needed. What i need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who i need is somebody who will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A MUTUAL ADDICTION.....

I Heart The Breakfast Club

I really enjoyed watching this 80's flick and instantly fell in love with the characters,especially John Bender played by Judd Nelson and Claire played by Molly Ringwald. I  love John Bender, i have this strong inclination towards bad guys and characters with flaws. I also got the chance of  seeing the 80's fashion and music in the movie.

Confidence

CONFIDENCE is the most sexiest thing a woman can have. Much sexier than any body parts.

Intuition

just a thought...why do i have this feeling that you want to intentionally hurt me... i don't know what your real motives are exactly

Picture Stories

Dear Past

I'm So Loving Me.....

I realize a lot of things lately,things which i hope would stay in me for a long time. I realized that there's no greater love in this world than the love you have for yourself. How can i possibly get love from other people when i myself don't love the real me.  There should be a wide room for self-respect, and forgiveness of past shortcomings. I can't go on living my life condemning my past failures. How can i transcend love when i don't have it?..the answer is really simple,i need to love myself more to attract more love from people around me and maybe hopefully attract love from a future possible lover..who knows?..the possibilities are endless.. :)

Clouded Judgement

I don't want to love someone so much to the point of letting it cloud my own judgement and my choices. I mean take for instance, you jump on the bandwagon of getting married because that's what you feel right at that moment added with the thing you thought as love only to find out in the end that you really don't know the person whom you're married with,so the end result would be nasty divorces and annulments coupled with regrets and these words--> should've, could've, and would've.

Chechehchehe....Cherry Bomb!

I've seen Dakota Fanning and Kristen Stewart in a whole new role,i'd say they did nail it. They were so good as Cherrie Currie and Joan Jett respectively. They played their role so well, they give justice to the role given to them as the legendary female rock icons of the 70's. It's a typical coming of age-sex-drugs-rock n roll movie.

CryBaby

It seems like my tear ducts are quite sensitive these days. I tend to be so emotional over things lately. I read my mother's birthday card for me again and it never fails to make me shed tears every time i read it. I can definitely feel the unconditional love she gave me. As long as i live, i will always pamper her.

Fairytale and Reality

In fairy tales,  the princess marries a prince and the prince marries a princess and then they live happily ever after. In reality, even royalties themselves can't make their love last.

B-Day

It's the start of my 28th year. I don't know what's in store for me for this year. I don't want to make further plans yet, i'll just enjoy the upcoming days as it comes. My 27th year was a mixed of everything->joy,love,pain,moving on,new path,new hopes,etc. So for this year, i'll just welcome each day with open arms and embrace it as it arrives. As the song from one of my fave band goes " Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, with open arms and open eyes " hell yeah :)

Nice Song

I wish that someone will sing me this song. I super love this, nice one by Lenny Kravitz

Bitter Much?

Got this crazy song from Jan's FB wall post, i literally LOL'd, don't get me wrong i am not bitter anymore, i have a lot of things to be happy about,bitterness isn't one of them. It's just crazy that's all.

Rescue Me

Rescue Me
---from this continued dissatisfaction i felt with my currently routinize life
---from this feelings of depression because i am drowned in it for quite a long time now.
---from this feelings of distrust even with the people around me
---from getting trapped into doing something i don't like because i need to not because i am happy with it
---from not getting a life,and learning to deal with it even to the point of getting used to it.
---from this feelings of insecurities and self-loathing

I guess,no one can rescue me except myself,i need to change my perspective,no one can change the whole situation but me and me alone.

“Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

3 B's

Got this message from Eric--> when you lose someone you love, you are changed in one of these three ways: you could be BITTER, BETTER or BITCH.

I can't stop myself from smiling because at some point, i did resort to not one but actually all of these three ways.  I was so bitter at some point but then i realize,what's there to be bitter about,when it was meant to end, some relationships are i guess,to quote yahoo movies about 500 days of summer: we walked away with all the same feelings we leave a relationship with -- regret, optimism, and the thought that although we're sad it's over, it was fantastic while it lasted. I am feeling better now,no trace of bitterness whatsoever, as for the bitch part, I've been there done it,another part of me that needs to be closed,no need to elaborate

Last Song Syndrome

I heard this before as a soundtrack from the movie Disturbing Behavior but i lost track since i wasn't able to get the song title,but it stays in my head. I came across with the song again when i watched Sex Drive,don't get me wrong,it's not a porno flick but yeah there are nudity in it but technically it isn't porn, it's a coming of age movie more of like American Pie. So here it goes, Got You(Where I Want You) by the Flys.

I'm Not In Love by Tori Amos

When i fell out of love,songs like this starts to get hold of  me and inspires me in any way,it doesn't mean that i am still bitter about it, it's just that this song completely captures what i feel.

Artist: Tori Amos
Album: Unknown
Title: I’m Not In Love

i’m not in love, so don’t forget it
It’s just a silly phase i’m going through
And just because i call you up,
Don’t get me wrong, don’t think you’ve got it made
I’m not in love, no no, it’s because...
I like to see you, but then again,
That doesn’t mean you mean that much to me
So if i call you, don’t make a fuzz
Don’t tell your friends about the two of us
I’m not in love, no no, it’s because...
I keep your picture upon the wall
It hides a nasty stain still lying there
It hides a nasty stain still lying there
I keep your picture upon the wall
It hides a nasty stain still lying there
It hides a nasty stain still lying there
So don’t you ask me to give it back
I know you know it doesn’t mean that much to me
I’m not in love, no no, it’s because...
Ooh, you’ll wait a long time for me
Ooh, you’ll wait a long time
Ooh, you’ll wait a long time for me
Ooh, you’ll wait a long time
I’m not in love, it's just a silly phase i'm goin through
And just because i call you up,
Don’t get me wrong, don’t think you’ve got it made
I’m not in love
I’m not in love

I Wish You Enough

I just wanna share this email from my dear friend Audrey. It inspires me to have a double check with how i live my life and be thankful with what i presently have and even be thankful of all the things that makes me sad as well.


I  wish you enough rain to appreciate  the  sun even  more.
I wish you enough happiness  to keep your spirit alive and  everlasting.
I wish you enough pain  so that even the smallest of  joys  in life may  appear bigger.
I wish you enough  gain to satisfy  your  wanting.
I wish  you enough loss to appreciate all that you  possess.
I wish you enough hellos  to get you through the final good-  bye.

They say it takes a minute to  find a special person, an hour to appreciate  them, a day to love them; but then an entire  life to forget them.

Life Check

I was deeply moved when i saw this video, I was actually under the influence of alcohol when i saw this, i can't stop myself from crying, i just cry and let my eyes dry up. I am complete,with all the necessary limbs to help me get on with life, but am i happy? honestly I am not, i am not happy at all. I am complete with limbs but i haven't live my life really well. What a shame, i am complete but i am not as happy as him. I haven't  gain any satisfaction with how my life goes. Have i totally live my life the way i want it? sadly i haven't, i live my life the way i should have, i live my life because i have big responsibility under my wings, i have live my life trapped in doing things i need to do, i automatically do the things that i hope will give them the satisfaction they want. I am the saddest 27 year old girl complete with limbs...complete physically but the most impaired in all of them,emotionally impaired, tired, stressed out and lonely.

Under the Influence

One thing i learned from last weekend's crazy  conversation was that-->never ever believe in someone else's words when they're impaired. Impaired as in under-the-influence-of-alcohol kind of impairment. I knew it, he didn't mean any of it at all,well i got excited,yeah but it's okay since i wasn't expecting much too. I don't care if i'll be leading a boring life as long as i don't expose myself that much and i won't never ever allow myself to be too available. It's just another hook up any way,casual thing which he proposes,and i realized that i don't want to have it again. I don't want another hook up, i don't want another game, i don't want another disaster wherein i'll expose myself again to someone who wanted nothing out of it but just a mere hook up.

Of Relationships and Cheating

Why do some persons who are already in a commitment cheats? even commitment as deep as sharing a marriage vow. I just can't get these questions off my mind as there are cases of infidelities I've come to know lately especially from people who are related to me,specifically related to me by blood. I was completely shocked,totally shocked when i  knew it. That person was the last person i expected to cheat, all along i thought that they have the best relationship, i felt really sad, i really didn't know about the real story but i just wish that both of them would patch things up and talk about it. I still totally wish that they'll save their marriage and work it out. What if i'll get married and discover that my husband is cheating on me,how would i react?..would i run?..would i end it right then and there?..would i save it?..would i be another Elin Nordegrens in the world?..am i ready for it?..as what my mother told me, i should be ready and strong enough when facing it,as there are really trials like that in marriage...pait..pait..pait kaayo...

A Fairytale by Plumb

We never talked about it
Cause you never even cared
And what you really wanted
I never even had
Cause what may seem right
And what may be wrong
Seems out of sight
In this place we belong
Giving everything

Giving everything for love
I'm finding out that its not enough
Theres nothing left between you and I
I'm finding faith but losing us (I'm losing us)
When worlds collide

Together we seem perfect
A fairy tale for sure
And looking on the outside
You'd never even know
We're just not right
When compromise is wrong
Seems out of sight
In this place we belong
Giving everything

Giving everything for love
I'm finding out that its not enough
Theres nothing left between you and I
I'm finding faith but losing us (I'm losing us)
When worlds collide

We're just not right
When compromise is wrong
Seems out of sight
In this place we belong
Giving everything

Giving everything for love
I'm finding out that its not enough
Theres nothing left between you and I
I'm finding faith but losing us (I'm losing us)
When worlds collide

JapDramas

I don't consider a drama a good drama unless i can't cry in one. I've seen two great Japanese dramas  lately and all i can say is that when it comes to being creative and imaginative,Japs are indeed good at it. I already finished Hana Yori Dango 1 and 2,including the movie as well, and then done with Kimi Wa Petto too. These two j-dramas never fail to make me shed tears. And now for a change, i am watching Love Shuffle, a romantic comedy about the lives of 4 yuppies in Tokyo. I've seen episode one and this time around it never fail to make me laugh.J-Dramas are indeed the best.

Kilig Moments

This is my favorite scene in the last episode of Hana Yori Dango,when Tsukushi finally found the guts to tell Domyuji that she loves him too. awwwwww....wla lng...pwede man cguro kiligon noh?.. I lIke the Japanese version than the Korean one. 

Pwede Mabuang Kadali?

. I got something to be crazy about lately and that is HanaYori Dango(F4 Japanese version). This hottie is my newest crush. He played as one of the members of F4,he only got a small role but he definitely caught my eyes. He is my newest fantasy...Shota Matsuda...oh gosh Shota!..kng pwede lng kitang shota-in...haha...

If Pics Could Talk

Slimming Coffee

I tried drinking this coffee which my friend recommends. It claims to help lose weight in just seven days. The effect it brought on me was kinda weird. I feel mentally alert and lose my appetite. I am always thirsty,i literally drank 5 liters of water already for the whole day,and up to this very moment,i still feel the need to drink more water. I sweat a lot and doesn't feel tired at all or sleepy. hm,, just wanna try this one box of Brazilian slimming coffee and see the results for myself, i searched it on the web and saw positive comments,that it is indeed effective.

Quotes 1

* You know how they say that you can’t live without love? Well oxygen is even more important. - Dr. House


* Letting go isn’t a one-time thing. It’s something you do everyday, over and over again. -Dawson's Creek
    -it's indeed a struggle :(


* Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts.


* Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. #omgwisdom


* Unhappiness is not knowing what we want and killing ourselves to get it. -Don Herold


* If you can't save the relationship, at least save your pride.#omgwisdom


* Things that seem hard are not always that hard. Put one foot in front of the other, and you’ll get to the end. #omgwisdom

Penny Lane

---Sometimes, you just have to try not to care no matter how much you do..because sometimes, you can mean  nothing to someone who means everything to you. It's not Pride. It's called Self-Respect

The title has something to do with the movie i watched called "Almost Famous". It is one of my favorite movies.  Why Penny Lane?-->because i can quite relate to her character, of being rebellious, of loving someone almost to the point of becoming foolish, of unrequited love thinking that the other genuinely loves her back when the truth is she's just misinterpreting things wrongly and that she was just used, of discovering the real life and the real world and having the guts to live life and throw away the foolish things she used to believe in.

Do I Really Have to Be With Someone?

I am 27, and when you are in this age, everyone seems to pressure you to be with someone. I am not at all perturbed that i am still single but surprisingly,people around me are the ones who are worried. Take for instance, hmm this question-->Why aren't you married,your'e already 27 or this one, Why are you single,you ought to be with someone,you don't look at all that bad, are you picky? with matching cge ka baka tatanda kang dalaga. So here's my answers--> I am not yet married because i choose not to,i am not yet ready,and i haven't met the one i want to spent my entire life with. I don't have a boyfriend because i don't need a guy to boost up my self esteem and yeah i may be picky,it's just because i am setting my standards high this time,i don't want to end up with another jerk who'll only break my heart for the nth time. I really want to fall in love again, to just love and feel the joys it brings,it's just that i want to make things right this time.