Bibong BIBO and Blessed 2.0

It's been a while since I've written something here in my personal wall. It's just that there's nothing to write about, my life lately has been very predictable-->wake-up-eat-open the computer-open skype-have lessons-afternoon nap-wake up-have lessons-sleep just that, an endless cycle of the same thing everyday. Surprisingly though, I am not complaining about the routine anymore because I get to like it, perhaps if you ask me what I feel about that kind of routine,let's say 2 years ago, the answer would be totally different and depressing. Right now, I have a different perspective. I am beyond blessed in a lot of ways. I am so glad to stick around and be part of a company and get a chance to see how it grows, I feel like I was growing along with them too. I am one of the teachers in the first batch in DMM Eikaiwa. Flashback February, we were just starting, we only have few students, you are lucky if you get one reservation in a day. From fewer students, it gradually increases plus they had the 980 yen per month promo too so a lot of students were coming in. Then they increased the price, the students went away too, we were back to "you-are-lucky-if-you-get-reservations" phase. I was having doubts by then if I'll stay or not because I am supporting my family and five reservations a day isn't enough to get by with our daily needs and bills. The reason why I stick a bit longer is that I get used to their system, I love DMM's system, it's hassle-free and schedules are easy to manage. I have regular students too, so I was really torn. That was then, but now, everything seems to be doing well, I think the nationwide commercial totally works and the low-priced lessons too was what attracted students to join DMM. There are a lot of students joining us and it means one thing, more reservations. I am so blessed because I got plenty of reservations these days and the good comments from my students encourages me to be better at what I do and to continuously try to improve more on my teaching skills. I get to meet new students. I am really happy because I get to help students improve their English skills and being appreciated doing it is just a bonus. I am very happy I stayed and I don't mind doing the same thing everyday.

Brand-new Start

I only have one thing to say to someone who asks me for a love advice especially when they're going through a heartbreak--> you'll eventually get over it and you'll laugh at your stupidity shortly thereafter. Time is the best healer, allow yourself to grieve at some point but for chrissake move on! Only stupid and bitter persons can't move on. My sister, cousin and a friend undergo through a painful heartache right now and it's sad to see them lose their usual cheerful self but I totally understand how it is. I had been there before and looking back, all those tears weren't worth it, it was plain stupid, honestly it was. It was meant to end and I felt so blessed that it all ended. Thanks God for rescuing me from the wrong people in my life.

Reflection 1.0

I firmly believe that if you want something so bad and fervently pray for it,coupled with faith as huge as the entire galaxy and God wills it to happen, then it will be handed out to you in all its glory. God knows you and reads you like a book, He knows you so well, He also knows the desire of your heart. He knows your secret longings and dreams, He even knows what you dislike. God will give you the desires of your heart. He has plans for you, plans that are way better than you have imagined, all you have to do is to trust Him more, have faith that it will be granted and be patient because God's time is the perfect time. It may not be granted yet maybe because it won't serve you well and it's not the best for you. Every rejection and heartaches has a reason. We may not understand it at first but when we try to look back we became thankful that it happened and realized that God really loves us so much. He doesn't want us to end up in a situation where we will become miserable.

Comfort Zone

I borrowed this analogy or whatever you want to call it from my recent favorite TV show Girls. I'm done with safe and predictable. I feel like I'm inside of that circle for far too long. There are still a lot of things that I wish to do and I don't want to arrive to a point in my old age regretting about things that I could have done. I want to have stories to tell, situations to experience, insights and wisdom to gain from the mistakes and failures I'll make. I have this hunger to go out of that circle when I saw my sister's friend struggling for his dear life because of an infection which slowly eats him. I have seen deaths from my relatives lately and it made me realize that life is just borrowed and life is too short to restrict ourselves inside that circle when in fact we can go out of it and fully embrace life and totally experience what it has to offer. Anything can happen and is achievable under the sun as long as we are still alive and will firmly believe that we can really get it,coupled with prayers and hard work. Life is not about quantity, it's more on the quality of life we have had and these questions we might possibly ask when we are in our deathbeds or even when we are still alive since we don't know when death will take us--> Have I love enough? Have I forgiven those who have done me wrong? Have I been a good person to those whom I've left behind? Have I been a good person to those whom I've met? Have I completely enjoyed my life? Have I been really happy,fulfilled and contented? Ahhhhhhhh I'm getting too philosophical, haha.....2013 target--> TO GET OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE AND EMBRACE THE MAGIC.

The Power of Prayer

I totally believe that God will grant you the desires of your heart if you fervently pray for it. I used to be so lost and misdirected, I used to trust on my own judgement when it comes to religion and spirituality stuffs. I used to be so spiritually hungry,maybe malnourished even. It all change when I agreed to go with my mama to church one day. Hearing the gospel after almost five years of not going to church breaks away any doubts and fears I have about myself. I regained my faith back. My outlook in life changed. God uses people, places and even situations to shake you up and make you realize that you mess up and you need Him and only Him alone. At a moment when I was so sad and unsure of how my life goes, I prayed that He'll guide me and take me out of the struggles inside my head.  While I was riding on a boat on the way to the beach in Bohol and just saw how vast the ocean is, I feel like I am the one who limits my own world, I am the one who let myself get stuck at home when in fact I could go to places.  I was so sad at work that even the mere mention of  "How are you?" to my students makes me cry, that's when I knew that I need to let go and send that resignation letter. I was so uncertain but something pushes me to just let go and send it, I don't know but it felt really liberating. Those situations that I mentioned on top, I feel that God uses those to make me trust in Him more, to just totally abandon to Him everything. It's like ayaw soloha, tawaga ko ug bahini ko anang imong gipas-an and I did and now I am in the proper frame of mind and more positive than before. I make it really a habit to go to church every Saturday morning to hear the 6am mass and I don't mind waking up very early,I prefer going to church on Saturdays because it's more solemn. I fervently asked for direction and He granted it to me and I am now happy,not lost and confused anymore. Thank you Lord for your love, compassion and mercy, I don't deserve it but you embrace me and my shortcomings. Salamat jud kaayo, walay tungkad na pasalamat.

By-Product of Boredom

I feel like I am paid to do nothing here in the office. Since yesterday's launching, I haven't had any students yet, not only me actually but almost all of us. I am glad to sign up for the teacher support program full time promo because even if I don't have reservations yet, I am already guaranteed a salary (spell GENEROUS!) minus 10% tax deduction though :( it's okey than to stay at home a penniless bum.

Bibong-BIBO and Blessed

Tomorrow will be a big day for me and for all DMM Eikaiwa teachers because it will be the first day of work for us in that company. I hope that DMM will prosper so that many Filipinos will be given an opportunity to earn. I am very excited since it is the first time for me to work in a new company tomorrow. We had our kick off party and it was fun, it's good to be around with nice and friendly teachers. So go BIBO/DMM! to new beginnings and hopefully for prosperous months to come, God bless us all.