Feb 28, 2010

Reviving My Faith

I went to church this morning(after 4 or 5 years of not going) and i'm so happy that i did, it seems like i found my way home. I've been lost,confused, and troubled. I used to turn back on my faith. I was too consumed with work,making money,and false beliefs, that i tend to forget my seemingly spiritual hungry soul. There are a lot of things that i am thankful for everyday and this day is one of them. I learned a lot of things from the priest's sermons. The one thing that really caught me was him saying this "a person has two sides,the dark side and the good side(a person's divinity). The dark side comprises our faults,weaknesses,failures,agonies,and struggles in life, the good side on the other-hand are our innate good nature and of being one with God and our faith in Him. Our dark side according to him doesn't define who we are as persons,but it is our good side and our faith in Him that makes us who we really are. I wanted to cry right then and there but i just hold back my tears, those words were indeed a balm to my wounded spiritual soul. From this day forward i vow to offer all the rest of this year's Sundays to Him. I know that He has  a lot of  good plans in store for me,and all I need to do is just to trust Him completely and give everything to Him.

Feb 24, 2010

A Dose of Brandon Flowers...



best version I've seen, I love Brandon Flowers

Feb 5, 2010

Latest Stuffs and Thoughts

It's February this time of the year,which means it's the love month once again. Just what really love is? heck! i don't know what it means anymore...hmmm i love my family and friends and my own present status and that little pup chippy,hmmmm that's love for me,other than that?,i mean with the guy and girl thing..nah....i don't know and i don't wanna elaborate anymore.....I had been drinking for two consecutive nights already, i love getting drunk and it makes me feel good, i understand now why the word alcoholism exist....the feeling that you're floating,inhibitions are getting less bit by bit and then suddenly you become brave and bold and the sheer thought of feeling empty and numb,temporarily forgetting the real world,those feelings were by far the greatest way to escape harsh realities,but then again we can't live in it for too long,so i need to wake up,face the same issues,matters and ways all over again.......I was asked by my sister with this question--->WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE? uhmmm,hmmmmm,ahhhhh, the answer is I DON'T KNOW because i really don't know which way to go,what path to follow,i'm f**cking 27 years old and i'm still stuck in my safe zone,automatically dealing with things that i need to do,stuck with my responsibilities for i don't know when........February 24 would be my last day in the office,it's time for me to say goodbye to the familiar office building i've been in and out with for two years and 6 months, i'll still be working in the same company but this time around i'll be working in another venue-->my house.........