Gold

Encountered this thing on twitter last time, it says " If a person shits gold, people around him would gladly wipe off his ass and kiss it"

Well what can I say, I have actually seen it. If you have loads of dough, other people would gladly fawn over you like you're some kind of a king or a royalty, they'll please you and regard you as someone important. On the other hand if you're dirt poor, they would ignore you, they wouldn't even try to know who you are, you'll be judged and scorned for being poor. When this certain poor person gets rich, the people who used to scorn him now tries to kiss his ass but the thing is,the "used-to-be-poor-person-who-is-rich-now" becomes one of them as well....

Haunted

I  was haunted again by my crazy past and now face the consequences of my past actions. I want to pursue an advanced education and would like to enrol in a reputable school for my graduate studies, sadly enough I was rejected because of the bad marks I have in my TOR. I got 9 5's,the school only allowed 2. Now tell me, who in her right mind would flunk P.E? all three  PE subjects,that's me! and the other subjects as well. Don't get me wrong, It's not' that I'm dumb, I was just lazy back then, and it's either I don't like the teacher or I don't like my classmates. If I don't like my teacher, I won't go to his/her class and would just stay in my dormitory and listen to music and doze off, I didn't take university life seriously then,  the question now is,sino ang lugi? It was me and me alone. Rejection, no matter how nicely it was said right in front of you,that bitch right there really hurts. It's mainly the reason why I don't have the guts to apply for work, that dirt mark in my TOR always remind me how irresponsible I was back then. No matter how much you've changed for the better, it will still haunt you. I could have proven them wrong, I could have shown them what I've got and what I'm capable of, but they've closed their doors on me. Their system and their standards won't allow a "used to be irresponsible individual" like me. I cried and regret about my crazy ways, and lose hope but then again as what my mama said, they are not the only open door,there are plenty of open doors out there and the world has endless possibilities. And so I went to another door,opened it and waited for another possible rejection but luckily, they allowed me in. I don't want to be melodramatic about it but I just can't prevent myself by being one. I'll go to class tomorrow,excited like a kindergarten pupil in school. I'll be waking up to whole new day,and a whole new chance. :)

October Highlights

Grow Some V

Girl power at its highest level! hahaha

New Fave-->Game of Thrones

The iron throne on top has something to do with this TV series I am addicted with recently. I love the story and   the characters in it. If there is one thing one mustn't do when watching Game of Thrones,that is not to get too attached with any of the characters because it will totally break your heart once they'll be killed off. I don't usually go for a medieval fantasy type of TV series but this one is different, It has one superb plot, great characters to look out for, and the scenes are simply amazing and authentic. I can't get over the scene when they killed off Ned, I was uttering curses and crying at the same time(crazy right?) that's how affected I was, I wanted to kill that bitch Cersei and Joffrey right then there. I can't get enough of it, I downloaded all five books in the Songs of Ice and Fire series, I want to know how the story goes, April 2012 seems a long time to wait for the second season. 

Women

Cynical

Picture Messages

Ouch

saw this on twitter, it somehow hits a mark
Why didn't we work out? --> because we loved the same person
I loved you and you loved yourself

Live......

Hooked on Entourage

 Five reasons on why I am hooked on Entourage

* Cast--Great ensemble,kudos to Doug Ellin for gathering these talented artists. I can't imagine other actors who would play Vince, Ari, Johnny Drama, Eric, and Turtle. I'd say Adrian Grenier, Jeremy Piven, Kevin Dillon, Kevin Connolly,and Jerry Ferrera did justice to the roles given to them. 

* Friendship--This TV series is mainly about a story of five friends and how they get on with their life in Hollywood. They may have all the perks but they are still a bunch of grounded inviduals who look out for each other. Camaraderie, loyalty, and friendship are the recurring themes in most of the episodes.

* Cameos--I was delighted when I saw Scarlett Johansson and Jessica Alba in the first season. Since then, I was always looking forward to the next episodes to spot cameos from my favorite actors and musicians.

* Funny Lines--Entourage never runs out of funny lines and banters. With Ari alone, I can already get a handful of it. Here's an example-->Ari: Yeah and Hillary Swank has a vagina and she won an Oscar for pretending she had a dick. That’s what actors do they pretend.

* Hollywood--Although the show is fictional, it somehow gives viewers a chance to have a glimpse of the life in Hollywood. From striking a deal, making a movie to premiers, and parties, Entourage has it all. 

Be Happy

Was browsing through my old posts and realized that most of it were indeed depressing and suicidal. So for a change, I need to rest from whining and bitching about my fucked up life for a while. This photo on top that I've discovered from reddit serves as an inspiration. :)

Dragoness

Mirisi sa lalaki na manyakis,mahadlok man diay ka ug dragon..haha

Twisted

Innocent people died in Norway because of a man's twisted beliefs. It was so sad and terrifying. It's not righteous to kill just because other people's beliefs are different from what you have. I just don't understand these religious fanatics who went to extremes even to the point of killing, It is just pointless. Their perceptions on religion and God went overboard. Even God himself surely weeps over these acts. God's very nature is love. It was never in His nature to hate and discriminate. He is a loving God who accepts and loves everyone->black, white, christians, muslims, straight, gay, bisexual etc. I have nothing against religion, i find each religion fascinating in fact. It's just that it is a choice, we don't have the right to force our ideologies on someone or to a certain extent to kill,that's just plain idiocy right there.

Fame Whore

I've seen the alleged azkals rape victim's interview last Sunday on Paparazzi. Her head is totally messed up. It was the kind of reaction i didn't expect from a rape victim. If you were violated you would totally feel bad and do all the things that would make those culprits pay.  Imagine four men taking turns to have sex with you and took videos of the sex act against your will and you just say that you have it in your heart to forget about what happened because they are popular and you don't want it to blow out of proportion and you don't have plans to let it out anyway. And you just start to talk now because people are starting to talk about it in blog and other publications. Nabuang ka? Her interview last Sunday just proved one thing, she's up to something. It seemed like she was more concerned with the issue of her being sacked from FHM's show. Everything she said was total bullshit and not true. She made it sound like it was rape with consent if there ever was one. A typical rape victim in that kind of situation would definitely do everything to let the perpetrators suffer the consequences of their actions no matter how popular they are, a typical rape victim would not care about what people would think, she would fight for it and make sure that justice will be served, rape is a major crime for heaven's sake! I was totally disgusted when i saw that interview, that girl in there was another famewhore who wants to ride on the coattails of the azkal's popularity. What a shame indeed!

Rest in Peace Lolo

Dear Lord God, send my love to heaven for my Lolo for me and for all my love ones who were already there with you. If not for him,my mom wouldn't be here and I wouldn't exist as well. Thank you for all the wonderful memories i shared with my lolo. May his soul rest in peace.

Exactly!

BF

Yeah Right!

Late Birthday Blog

I celebrated my 29th birthday last June 18 by giving myself the most precious thing that money can't buy-->4 days off. I don't need any present or delicious food for my birthday,this was just what all i ever wanted-time to steer clear of work and responsibilities for awhile. 4 days were already a luxury for me. I did enjoy it. It was simple, I just spent it together with my family. My cousins went to visit me and enjoyed some good food and booze.It was okey,just simple,I don't want to spend too much money on something on my birthday and then regret the next day because we are running out of dough.

Bible Verse

Willie is the only student i have who would incorporate bible reading in our classes. Tonight he asked me about my favorite bible verse. I was caught off guard as i am the type of Christian who seldom reads her bible. So i took my bible, opened it and just scroll down on whatever page i'd get into and i got this --> Mark 11:24-25-When you pray and ask for something, believe that you have received it, and you will be given what you ask for. And when you stand and pray, forgive anything you may have against anyone, so that your Father in heaven will forgive the wrong things you have done.

Serotonin

My sister told me to gobble up on a lot of chocolates whenever i feel blue. Chocolates are rich in serotonin also called as the happy hormones. I guess i'll make it a habit to eat more

Interests

I'm into these things recently, they make my indoor life more fun.

-How I Met Your Mother
* A TV series that never runs out of  funny dialogues and pick up lines. With the great cast of  Jason Segel, Neil Patrick Harris, Cobie Smoulders and Allison Hannigan,HIYMYM never fails to tickle ones funny bones with each episode.

-The Big Bang Theory
* This TV program makes geeks and nerds so lovable and Physics seems easy to understand. Full of witty banters and crazy antics, TBBT would always  make you laugh out loud and set aside sad stuffs for awhile.

-The Vampire Diaries
* I have been fascinated with vampires when i saw the movie Queen of the Damned, the rockstar vampire Lestat got me hooked, ever since then my vampire fantasies stayed with me. I was always on vampire literature and i think Anne Rice is the best author when it comes to this genre, Stephanie Meyers wasn't even close. The Vampire Chronicles was like porn for a vampire literature junkie like me. Twilight is full of drama and mushy stuffs, too tame for my taste. I want my vampire fantasy dark and hardcore and TVD gives me that. Move over Edward Cullen! I think Damon Salvatore is way better than you. Damon makes my vampire viewing habit a pleasure,not only Damon but the entire cast of  TVD as well. Great storyline and interesting characters makes me crave for more TVD episodes.

I'm Sorry to Tell You This, but..........

funny how people say " i'm sorry to tell you this but....then next are the most rude words you could possibly hear like i'm sorry to tell you this but your country is poor that's why there are many Filipino workers around the world, i know about that but with the way you say it added with your evil chuckle totally pissed me off....i would really love to retaliate with this too--> i'm sorry to tell you this but you are one racist asshole and an ugly one at that with matching dirty finger but i won't, know why? hindi ko kayang pantayan ang kagaguhan mo.

Take a Leap

Listen to what the world is telling you to do....and take a leap

Awkward

Talking about sensitive topics which involves condoms and sex to a hottie student is indeed awkward. I don't know how to react. I was at a loss for words. He was the one who opened up about it as he is scheduled to be interviewed in a guess what----->condom company. It was awkward and in a way funny. Here's how it started, we have the usual rapport,like->how's your day,do you have any plans..blah blah and then he opened up about his interview, actually he was trying to find another word for it in his electronic dictionary..i wasn't able to fully catch what he tried to tell me..he mentioned sheath...i was looking for it in my dictionary too and even defined it as "sheath=a case for a blade or sword"  and then he replied well yeah it could be metaphorically...and then he supplied another one....hmm protection for aids and hiv..and then he supplied me with the website..and then there..my sleepy mind was opened, he was talking in fact about a condom...and then he opened up about his upcoming interview in that company and how it could be a big market.

Feelings and VD

" I caught feelings, I caught feelings bad, I used protection and everything "
-Barney on his feelings for Robin (HIMYM)

Fake Orgasm

Woman can manage to fake orgasms with the same artistic quality as the most famous and talented of movie stars

Party

Browsed through some sites and saw this one ——> When life gives you lemons , get salt and tequila….and then let’s party! 

We will all die anyway,then might as well get a different approach on life. I don’t want to die worrying about a lot of things which are basically a part of life already, for instance; problems,sadness, and other negative stuffs,they all exist even when i was not yet born. Instead of worrying,why not find ways to change it, like:

* problems-find solutions and stop complaining, pray instead of cursing 

* sadness-find ways to be happy, go out, explore, and be thankful with all the things you presently enjoy,waking up alive is already one big thing that’s worth thankful for.

* negative stuffs-make it more positive

I don’t want to die sad, I want to die happy and as someone who totally lived her life to the fullest

Dear Batchmate.....

Dear batchmate who is still stuck in High School,

Move on and get a life, will you? Please stop tagging me in an unflattering high school photo in FB. Yeah I am deeply aware that I look hideous then. You don't need to remind me and our other batchmates as well. We all have move on from that phase, not everyone was having a wonderful High School life just like you. You don't need to go through the trouble of having our high school photos scanned and have it posted on  Facebook. Find other useful ways of using your time instead.

Sincerely,
former hideous batchmate

Long-Distance Relationship

LDR--->all talk and no sex.....as described in How I Met Your Mother

Friends Forever

Maybe the reason why you have to stop loving a person is because fate choose both of you to be friends, where forever is a lot more possible....

Prayer

Bless me, heavenly Father,
Forgive my erring ways,
Grant me strength to serve Thee,
Put purpose in my day.
Give me understanding,
Enough to make me kind,
So I may judge all people
With my heart and not my mind.

And teach me to be patient
In everything I do,
Content to trust Your wisdom
And to follow after You.
And help me when I falter,
And hear me when I pray,
And receive me in Thy kingdom,
To dwell with Thee someday.

Misery

The worst misery of all is recalling how great things once were.

Thank You, More Please

If there is one thing I've learned in the movie happythankyoumoreplease, it has to be the word GRATITUDE. It's more of being appreciative of the things we presently enjoy such as our life, family, job(even though it sucks sometimes), friends, possessions, relationships, and just simply about everything that we have. Most of the time,our initial reactions to bad situations are complaints,endless complaints which in turn pull us down and makes us see the world in such a way that it's gloomy, some even views it as hell, well we can't blame it, that's how we are accustomed to. But if we try to be thankful instead of the other good things still in our lives then maybe we can see life in a more positive perspective. The words "thank you", simple as it may seem is in fact also two of the most powerful words that can heal our wounded souls.
-Thank you Lord for the gift of life
-Thank you for my family and friends
-Thank you for my job,for i now have the financial means to survive
-Thank you i have a house, a shelter I can call home
-Thank you for my talents, though it's not as exceptional as what others have
-Thank you that I am made complete(with the right body parts, although i wish that i could have been blessed with a good height  ^_^).
-Thank you for everything
If we say thank you to people more often for the good things they've done, it could bring smile on their faces and possibly makes them love to continue doing good things to others. If we say thank you more often for the blessing we have, maybe when we request for something to Him and would ask "more please God"  then maybe our request will always be granted.

happythankyoumoreplease quotes

* When i see something i like looking at, I got to keep looking at it. -Sam 2

* Sadness be gone, let's be people who deserve to be loved who are worthy, 'cause we are worthy -Annie

* I'm so sick of optism, it's so fucking exhausting -Annie

V-Day

My V-Day

-I don't have a date, if you could count computer as a date then maybe yeah i have one, only that my computer in here doesn't have a penis.

-My uterus unfortunately sheds blood,and here i am in front of my computer and suffering from abdominal cramps.

-It's a rainy day and it's a Monday, just like the song, these two always gets me down.

Wala nang sasaklap pa sa Valentines day ko but anyway this day too shall pass...

WTF

watched davao local news gnina,disturbing ayo ang isa ka reporter kung isulti na niya iya name...viiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa chever....pilit pa xa sa ako dunggan..mka soundtrip nga....erase erase erase.....

DICK

A big dick is a bore if it's attached to a big dick

Vow

I am not good with new year's resolution as i'm the type who would be only good at doing it on the first two weeks or so but failed miserably in keeping it up through to the end. But this year, i found myself in full force to really get on with what i always want to do and in what i always wanted to achieve and that is to lose weight and feel fabulous. After seeing May, i came to a decision that i should indeed lose weight. I am single but i look like i have the body of a married woman. I want this year to be more of a positive one. I want to look good,not necessarily pretty but to at least look good so that i may feel good. I got tired too of hearing other people calling me fat. Fit and Fab Ana FTW!

Addiction

Addiction is the hallmark of every infatuation-based love story. It all begins when the object of your adoration bestows upon you a heady, hallucinogenic dose of something you never even dared to admit that you wanted—an emotional speedball,perhaps, of thunderous love and roiling excitement. Soon you start craving that intense attention, with the hungry obsession of any junkie. When the drug is withheld, you promptly turn sick, crazy and depleted (not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouraged this addiction in the first place but who now refuses to pony up the good stuff anymore—despite the fact that you know he has it hidden somewhere, goddamn it, because he used to give it to you for free). Next stage finds you skinny and shaking in a corner, certain only that you would sell your soul or rob your neighbors just to have that thing even one more time. Meanwhile, the object of your adoration has now become repulsed by you. He looks at you like you’re someone he’s never met before, much less someone he once loved with high passion. The irony is, you can hardly blame him. I mean, check yourself out. You’re a pathetic mess, unrecognizable even to your own eyes.
So that’s it. You have now reached infatuation’s final destination—the complete and merciless devaluation of self. --from Eat, Pray, Love

* I can relate to this line for sure, I've been there once. One thing  I learned though is that, the only antidote to this addiction is the word self-respect coupled with self-love. And then end it right then and there when it is not making you happy anymore.

Slimming Capsules

It is my second day of taking pearl white slimming capsules. These are some of the effects i felt so far--> i always feel thirsty, i can gulp down 3-5 liters of water a day,i sweat profusely,i lose appetite, i feel full with just a little food in my plate. The good thing about this pill is that it doesn't make you go to the CR to poo all the time like the other slimming products i use before,

Memorable Quotes from Norwegian Wood

He lived in his own special hell

When you're surrounded by endless possibilities, one of the hardest things you can do is pass them up

Life doesn't require ideals. It requires standards of action."

Even if we hadn't met that day, my life might not have been any different. We were supposed to meet. If not then, some other time.

I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it  - to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more

That's the kind of death that frightens me. The shadow of death slowly, slowly eats away at the region of life, and before you know it everything's dark and you can't see, and the people around you think of you as more dead than alive. I hate that

One of our problems was our inability to recognize and accept our own deformities. Just as each person has certain idiosyncrasies in the way he or she walks, people have idiosyncrasies in the way they think and feel and see things, and though you might want to correct them, it doesn't happen overnight, and if you try to force the issue in one case, something else might go funny

It may well be that we can never fully adapt to our own deformities. Unable to find a place inside ourselves for the very real pain and suffering that these deformities cause, we come here to get away from such things.
As long as we are here, we can get by without hurting others or being hurt by them because we know that we are "deformed"

The dead will always be dead, but we have to go on living

If you want to take those feelings and smash somebody with them, smash me. Then we can understand each other better

We worked so hard, so hard, building our world one brick at a time. And when it fell apart, it happened just like that. Everything was gone before you knew it

People are strange when you're a stranger

Don't you think it would be wonderful to get rid of everything and everybody and just go somewhere where you don't know a soul

That's how people live in the real world: forcing stuff on each other."

It's the working class that keeps the world running, and it's the working classes that get exploited

You know the English subjunctive, you understand trigonometry, you can read Marx, and you don't know the answer to something as simple as  that? Why do you even have to ask? Why do you have to make a girl say something like this? I like  you more than I like him, that's all. I wish I had fallen in love with somebody a little more handsome, of course. But I didn't. I fell in love with you!

I'm a real, live girl, with real, live blood gushing through my veins. You're holding me in your arms and I'm telling you that I love you. I'm ready to do anything you tell me to do. I may be a little bit mad, but I'm a good girl, and honest, and I work hard, I'm kind of cute, I have nice boobs, I'm a good cook, and my father left me
a trust fund. I mean, I'm a real bargain, don't you think? If you don't take me, I'll end up going somewhere else."

"Death exists, not as the opposite but as a part of life." By living our lives, we nurture death.

No truth can cure the sadness we feel from losing a loved one. No truth, no sincerity, no strength, no kindness, can cure that sorrow. All we can do is see that sadness through to the end and learn something from it, but what we learn will be no help in facing the next sadness that comes to us without warning

"Letters are just pieces of paper," I said. "Burn them, and what stays in your heart will stay; keep them, and what vanishes will vanish."

To Deactivate or Not?

Caught between wanting to deactivate my facebook account and not wanting to do it. For once, it is my connection with the outside world, i mean being a person who spends her time at home working,it sure is a big help somehow. On the other hand facebook makes me depress. I look at other people's profile and see them get a life while here I am stuck in my my own world, how pathetic a kind of life is that? but hell yeah i do in fact live that kind of life. I guess i could survive without it, as i am not also the type who rants about everything and share it so that the world may know what i feel. I really don't know, I'm a bit torn between deactivating my account or not.

Love and Other Drugs

I have seen Love and Other Drugs. I could sum it up this way-> love.sex.flirting.zoloft.prozac.penile dysfunction. Viagra. Parkinson's. Anne Hathaway. Jake Gyllenhaal.good storyline and nice dialogue equals Love and Other Drugs. I love it, it's not the typical love story. Its refreshing to see Anne Hathaway in an adult role,completely different than when i saw her in Princess Diaries. There's a buzz that her role in that movie would give her an Oscar nomination, i truly think that she indeed deserves it. Jake is equally good in that movie as well.

High Time

I really feel good i have this 20 days of rest, I feel recharged after the tiring days of December last year. I realize that life is just a matter of your perspective and of how you see it. I need to look at life in a positive way,so as to prevent boredom and stress and not to get too serious with my job and my students, i should just have fun instead.....no one in this world gets out alive anyway, i have been given this life to live, then might as well enjoy it i think. I shouldn't put too much effort into thinking about what i really want out of this life,what i want to do and other "self-gratification thoughts". I should be happy i have a job and i get chance to help my family financially. As what the sunscreen song says " Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t."  I think i should just enjoy each present moment of my life. Go with the flow and just be thankful each day.

The Sunscreen Song

Everybody's Free(To Wear Sunscreen)
by Baz Luhrman

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…