Vow

I am not good with new year's resolution as i'm the type who would be only good at doing it on the first two weeks or so but failed miserably in keeping it up through to the end. But this year, i found myself in full force to really get on with what i always want to do and in what i always wanted to achieve and that is to lose weight and feel fabulous. After seeing May, i came to a decision that i should indeed lose weight. I am single but i look like i have the body of a married woman. I want this year to be more of a positive one. I want to look good,not necessarily pretty but to at least look good so that i may feel good. I got tired too of hearing other people calling me fat. Fit and Fab Ana FTW!

Addiction

Addiction is the hallmark of every infatuation-based love story. It all begins when the object of your adoration bestows upon you a heady, hallucinogenic dose of something you never even dared to admit that you wanted—an emotional speedball,perhaps, of thunderous love and roiling excitement. Soon you start craving that intense attention, with the hungry obsession of any junkie. When the drug is withheld, you promptly turn sick, crazy and depleted (not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouraged this addiction in the first place but who now refuses to pony up the good stuff anymore—despite the fact that you know he has it hidden somewhere, goddamn it, because he used to give it to you for free). Next stage finds you skinny and shaking in a corner, certain only that you would sell your soul or rob your neighbors just to have that thing even one more time. Meanwhile, the object of your adoration has now become repulsed by you. He looks at you like you’re someone he’s never met before, much less someone he once loved with high passion. The irony is, you can hardly blame him. I mean, check yourself out. You’re a pathetic mess, unrecognizable even to your own eyes.
So that’s it. You have now reached infatuation’s final destination—the complete and merciless devaluation of self. --from Eat, Pray, Love

* I can relate to this line for sure, I've been there once. One thing  I learned though is that, the only antidote to this addiction is the word self-respect coupled with self-love. And then end it right then and there when it is not making you happy anymore.

Slimming Capsules

It is my second day of taking pearl white slimming capsules. These are some of the effects i felt so far--> i always feel thirsty, i can gulp down 3-5 liters of water a day,i sweat profusely,i lose appetite, i feel full with just a little food in my plate. The good thing about this pill is that it doesn't make you go to the CR to poo all the time like the other slimming products i use before,

Memorable Quotes from Norwegian Wood

He lived in his own special hell

When you're surrounded by endless possibilities, one of the hardest things you can do is pass them up

Life doesn't require ideals. It requires standards of action."

Even if we hadn't met that day, my life might not have been any different. We were supposed to meet. If not then, some other time.

I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it  - to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more

That's the kind of death that frightens me. The shadow of death slowly, slowly eats away at the region of life, and before you know it everything's dark and you can't see, and the people around you think of you as more dead than alive. I hate that

One of our problems was our inability to recognize and accept our own deformities. Just as each person has certain idiosyncrasies in the way he or she walks, people have idiosyncrasies in the way they think and feel and see things, and though you might want to correct them, it doesn't happen overnight, and if you try to force the issue in one case, something else might go funny

It may well be that we can never fully adapt to our own deformities. Unable to find a place inside ourselves for the very real pain and suffering that these deformities cause, we come here to get away from such things.
As long as we are here, we can get by without hurting others or being hurt by them because we know that we are "deformed"

The dead will always be dead, but we have to go on living

If you want to take those feelings and smash somebody with them, smash me. Then we can understand each other better

We worked so hard, so hard, building our world one brick at a time. And when it fell apart, it happened just like that. Everything was gone before you knew it

People are strange when you're a stranger

Don't you think it would be wonderful to get rid of everything and everybody and just go somewhere where you don't know a soul

That's how people live in the real world: forcing stuff on each other."

It's the working class that keeps the world running, and it's the working classes that get exploited

You know the English subjunctive, you understand trigonometry, you can read Marx, and you don't know the answer to something as simple as  that? Why do you even have to ask? Why do you have to make a girl say something like this? I like  you more than I like him, that's all. I wish I had fallen in love with somebody a little more handsome, of course. But I didn't. I fell in love with you!

I'm a real, live girl, with real, live blood gushing through my veins. You're holding me in your arms and I'm telling you that I love you. I'm ready to do anything you tell me to do. I may be a little bit mad, but I'm a good girl, and honest, and I work hard, I'm kind of cute, I have nice boobs, I'm a good cook, and my father left me
a trust fund. I mean, I'm a real bargain, don't you think? If you don't take me, I'll end up going somewhere else."

"Death exists, not as the opposite but as a part of life." By living our lives, we nurture death.

No truth can cure the sadness we feel from losing a loved one. No truth, no sincerity, no strength, no kindness, can cure that sorrow. All we can do is see that sadness through to the end and learn something from it, but what we learn will be no help in facing the next sadness that comes to us without warning

"Letters are just pieces of paper," I said. "Burn them, and what stays in your heart will stay; keep them, and what vanishes will vanish."

To Deactivate or Not?

Caught between wanting to deactivate my facebook account and not wanting to do it. For once, it is my connection with the outside world, i mean being a person who spends her time at home working,it sure is a big help somehow. On the other hand facebook makes me depress. I look at other people's profile and see them get a life while here I am stuck in my my own world, how pathetic a kind of life is that? but hell yeah i do in fact live that kind of life. I guess i could survive without it, as i am not also the type who rants about everything and share it so that the world may know what i feel. I really don't know, I'm a bit torn between deactivating my account or not.

Love and Other Drugs

I have seen Love and Other Drugs. I could sum it up this way-> love.sex.flirting.zoloft.prozac.penile dysfunction. Viagra. Parkinson's. Anne Hathaway. Jake Gyllenhaal.good storyline and nice dialogue equals Love and Other Drugs. I love it, it's not the typical love story. Its refreshing to see Anne Hathaway in an adult role,completely different than when i saw her in Princess Diaries. There's a buzz that her role in that movie would give her an Oscar nomination, i truly think that she indeed deserves it. Jake is equally good in that movie as well.

High Time

I really feel good i have this 20 days of rest, I feel recharged after the tiring days of December last year. I realize that life is just a matter of your perspective and of how you see it. I need to look at life in a positive way,so as to prevent boredom and stress and not to get too serious with my job and my students, i should just have fun instead.....no one in this world gets out alive anyway, i have been given this life to live, then might as well enjoy it i think. I shouldn't put too much effort into thinking about what i really want out of this life,what i want to do and other "self-gratification thoughts". I should be happy i have a job and i get chance to help my family financially. As what the sunscreen song says " Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t."  I think i should just enjoy each present moment of my life. Go with the flow and just be thankful each day.

The Sunscreen Song

Everybody's Free(To Wear Sunscreen)
by Baz Luhrman

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…