Haunted

I  was haunted again by my crazy past and now face the consequences of my past actions. I want to pursue an advanced education and would like to enrol in a reputable school for my graduate studies, sadly enough I was rejected because of the bad marks I have in my TOR. I got 9 5's,the school only allowed 2. Now tell me, who in her right mind would flunk P.E? all three  PE subjects,that's me! and the other subjects as well. Don't get me wrong, It's not' that I'm dumb, I was just lazy back then, and it's either I don't like the teacher or I don't like my classmates. If I don't like my teacher, I won't go to his/her class and would just stay in my dormitory and listen to music and doze off, I didn't take university life seriously then,  the question now is,sino ang lugi? It was me and me alone. Rejection, no matter how nicely it was said right in front of you,that bitch right there really hurts. It's mainly the reason why I don't have the guts to apply for work, that dirt mark in my TOR always remind me how irresponsible I was back then. No matter how much you've changed for the better, it will still haunt you. I could have proven them wrong, I could have shown them what I've got and what I'm capable of, but they've closed their doors on me. Their system and their standards won't allow a "used to be irresponsible individual" like me. I cried and regret about my crazy ways, and lose hope but then again as what my mama said, they are not the only open door,there are plenty of open doors out there and the world has endless possibilities. And so I went to another door,opened it and waited for another possible rejection but luckily, they allowed me in. I don't want to be melodramatic about it but I just can't prevent myself by being one. I'll go to class tomorrow,excited like a kindergarten pupil in school. I'll be waking up to whole new day,and a whole new chance. :)